Confessions of a Female Pastor

Marten (my husband) had to work today. He has to work a lot of Sundays. I got up early before the girls like I do every morning. I had my "quiet time" study, prayer, meditation. I went over my sermon...then I got the girls up, made their breakfast, made sure they were dressed appropriately,hair brushed, eating, before I finally started getting ready myslef. My oldest shortly parked herself on my bed right outside my bathroom door where I was putting on my makeup. "The computer has a virus, there is something on the screen and...," she said. I just wanted to get ready. I just wanted to be in "the zone" to prepare for my pastoral duties, to deliver the sermon, to...She went on. She sat there. I think she actually expected me to go figure out what was going on, or fix it, or I don't know. I just wanted to get ready. I just wanted to be in "the zone". I told her I had no time and to please leave my room so I could get ready.
I am certain that male pastors do not have to handle these Sunday morning responsibilities. Their wonderful wives are dressing and feeding their children. Their wives are stopping the fights and the bickering. THEY are in "the zone". These male pastors have probably been handed a cup of coffee by their wife. They might not even have ironed the shirt they are wearing.
I get to church. I have the kids in tow. I start giving them instructions before we walk in. "When we get there please do this and go do that for mommy." The youngest always interrupts conversations. She is asking permission to do something or go somewhere. I'm just trying to be the pastor and she just sees mommy.
I'm trying to figure this out. It's pretty much the same after the benediction when I am speaking to folks as they leave. The kids are there, the younger one asking questions and wanting my attention. Yes, Marten and I have both spoken to her, but it continues.
We are all getting used to this. ALL of us. I pray that those I serve will see that in order for me to be a better pastor they might have to help me to be a better wife and mother...whatever that might look like.

Who are the people of God?

I have been going through some of my work over the last 3 1/2 years and found this and enjoyed it. I thought you might too...

Who are the people of God?
What have we been called to do?
Why are we set apart? He alone makes all things new.
How do we share the love of Christ?
So each one will know and feel
That they are part of His great story and invited to the meal of meals.
One tree does not a forest make,
Community is key for Kingdom’s sake.
The incarnation of His love
We will go where he sends.
Together we will live and work and plan
For revolution and renewal and redemption.
We will go to them.
We will sacrifice.
Long-suffering servants of Jesus Christ.
With zeal and passion that cannot be touched
By anyone or thing besides Him who lives in us.
Knowing their hearts, as He does so well,
We will build relationships and then we will tell,
Of all He has done and all He will do
And how wide and how deep is his love for me and you.
We will love into the Kingdom by the power of the Holy Spirit,
A trumpet is blowing, can you just hear it?